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Thursday, November 14th, 2002
8:07 pm	i wish someone would please tell me what is so bad about wanting to spent time with your boyfriend. But no i'm a cunt and i am trying to control his life all because i want him to stay home and chill with me. But no allen and the all mighty bar are way more important. oh and to make it better brian smaashes my lamp and @ the same time allen calls, so i answer the phone and hang it back up. Then allen calls again but i sobing and neither one of us answer it so he says i am a dirty bitch and a fuckin cunt on my answering machine. It's not even about him. I just i miss brian so much, I =like barely see him any more. our work schedules don't vibe anymore so i see him like 10 mins in the morning and talk to him on the phone maybe twice a night. i hate not being improtant enough to be on his list of prioritys. i am so upset *need hugs* Current Mood: sick Current Music: do you really love me underneath it all?? (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 15th, 2002
12:18 pm	having a small get together for my b~day...all welcom. colonial village k-5 around 8pm~ish. peace (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 20th, 2002
1:15 am	BETHANY!!!!!!!! I Have a Great Boy, no Man for you!! My friend Keith. He is 19 has a car. short but not too short. cute!! Blond w/blue eyes. i have pictures. He is nice, smart, funny. He likes to party. His fave band is Tool. Deftones comes in second. He is kinda shy. I work with him. He described the perfect girl for him and you came to my mind. Lynn told me(i think) or maybe i read it in Lj that you and Jeff split. Let me know if you are interested. My number is 967-7939 or hit my cellie at 219-2119. ~*~*peace~*~* Amber (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, March 29th, 2002
9:21 am	Oh my GOD!!!!!!!! it looks like a penis Take the Pez Dispenser Quiz. created by Peta </a> (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 2nd, 2002
12:48 am	it just figures i get the fuckin ugly fairy!!! Go Faeries!! Take the What Faery Are You? Quiz! This quiz was made by lia Current Mood: restless Current Music: um....cleaning sucks (Comment on this)
12:43 am	I'm a Fire Spirit Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Friday, January 25th, 2002
1:18 pm	so, i have been up since 4ish this morning. i feel really acomplished. i cleaned and did dishes. i made brian and me lunch, but of course he's not hungry. but on a happy note i got another piece last night. @ ViBrAtIoNs smoke shop and emporium. which is exit 49 off 91 south, take a right at the lights. you can't miss it. But it was more like bong central. lol i want a fat glass one, it looks just like a vase. i can put it on the coffee table :) more quizes I'm the purple shimmer Doc Marten... I'm a little spunky, definitely fun, and I like believing in fantasy Which Doc Marten are you? (by *coffeebean*) Current Mood: energetic Current Music: radio still HOT 93.7 (Comment on this)
11:12 am	lol. I think they got me and lynn confused!!! "stompy stompy stomp stomp!" I know who's who and what's what and I can stomp with the best of them. I've cruised the clubs a bit, no one really knows my name but I've probably gone home with a few of the regulars. Take the How Industrial Are You? Test! created by Isis DeViance. </font> </font> Current Mood: awake Current Music: HOT 93.7 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 23rd, 2002
12:35 am	lol so i have two care bears. See what Care Bear you are. See what Care Bear you are./a> (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 20th, 2002
11:12 pm	that's right guys... i have become a pot head!!! It sucks....well, sucks isn't the right word. It's just i bought an 1/8 of this kind bud (orange crush) on friday and we (brian and I) have one bowl left and that's fifty bucks a wack and i called my dealer tonight and i am getting another 1/8 tomorrow.. this is going to be an expensive habit to kick. But i would rather smoke to get fucked up than drink cause there's no hang over, no bad spinns. Uhhh what am I to do?????? oh yeah...like my new icon Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: just spent $30 @ laundry mat of 13 loads (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 19th, 2002
1:42 am	i hate the answers to those quizes' [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<br \>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] i hate the answers to those quizes' <img src="http://squirming.net/meme/tests/criminal/charlesmanson.jpg" title="I am Charles Manson"><br \><a href="http://squirming.net/meme/tests/criminal/">Which Evil Criminal are <i>You</i>?</a> do i look like charles manson? (Comment on this)
Monday, January 14th, 2002
12:00 am	so this is a test that's right. Brian and i broke the key board. but we fixed it. Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 5th, 2002
12:40 am	Oh man...talk about road trip!!!!! Ok so tuesday nite brian asked me if I wanted to go to Hershey, PA. to see the factory..i said sure why not(thinking this summer. So wednesday morning he wakes me up a 7 a.m. with James at our pad and tells me to get ready..yep he wanted to go right then. So after a half hour of fighting. we left for breakfast and think Crystal Springs is soo fucking gross. Yuck..(no ofense, lynn) Right then to wally world for camera and money, brian went to bank and were off or so i thought. To Chicopee to James' so he could get cd's, digital camera and coat and now we're off James and i keep trading places and i slept for a while. Plus we stoped for smokes, which by the way i quit for new years ~Big Smile~ And Double YUCK. James' smoked three packs of Menthol cigs on the trip that's SIXTY!!! Plus he smoke a pack at my house, so that makes Eighty fucking cancer sticks in one sitting. i am so glad i quit. well to make a long story short we had lunch and dinner at Wendy's, fucking awesome nuggets. and at 4:35 we made it to the Hershey Factory which closed at 5. so we amde it in the nick of time. and you take a tour on these little carts areond a simulater factory that smells like chocolate. I was awesome. well worth the 4& 1/2 hour ride. LOL :) On hte way home we decided to go to New York City's Manhatten. i drove from Pennsylvania to New Jersy. Oh man do Jersey drives scare me. Plus we got lost in Newark. And Brian is the best driver I know. He weved in and out of the city like nothing. I thought he was almost as bad as those cabbies. And James sucks at directions. He kept telling us to turn here or there and we kept getting lost. But you could tell when we started to get closer to the World Trade Center cause there were cops and firemen every where. those fuckin' Arabs really fucked us. like all the streets are all fucked up. So i got to see the remains of the WTC. I really can't explain the sadness. I cried so much. There are walls and walls of memorials to the lost. they plaster the streets. it gave me the most erie feeling. i keep thinking that people were where i am standing but in pure horror i mean the city is so fucked up like blocks and blocks away. I just blew my mind. Well, Brian got pissed cause he kept hitting pot holes so we headed home. I drove home from New Haven, Connecticut. and we went to bed at 3 am to get up at 5 am to do the mother fuckin' paper route that I hate more than anything in the world. Current Mood: okay Current Music: Wallflower-Caroline's Spine (Comment on this)
12:08 am	Oh man...talk about road trip!!!!! Ok so tuesday nite brian asked me if I wanted to go to Hershey, PA. to see the factory..i said sure why not(thinking this summer. So wednesday morning he wakes me up a 7 a.m. with James at our pad and tells me to get ready..yep he wanted to go right then. So after a half hour of fighting. we left for breakfast and think Crystal Springs is soo fucking gross. Yuck..(no ofense, lynn) Right then to wally world for camera and money, brian went to bank and were off or so i thought. To Chicopee to James' so he could get cd's, digital camera and coat and now we're off James and i keep trading places and i slept for a while. Plus we stoped for smokes, which by the way i quit for new years ~Big Smile~ And Double YUCK. James' smoked three packs of Menthol cigs on the trip that's SIXTY!!! Plus he smoke a pack at my house, so that makes Eighty fucking cancer sticks in one sitting. i am so glad i quit. well to make a long story short we had lunch and dinner at Wendy's, fucking awesome nuggets. and at 4:35 we made it to the Hershey Factory which closed at 5. so we amde it in the nick of time. and you take a tour on these little carts areond a simulater factory that smells like chocolate. I was awesome. well worth the 4& 1/2 hour ride. LOL :) On hte way home we decided to go to New York City's Manhatten. i drove from Pennsylvania to New Jersy. Oh man do Jersey drives scare me. Plus we got lost in Newark. And Brian is the best driver I know. He weved in and out of the city like nothing. I thought he was almost as bad as those cabbies. And James sucks at directions. He kept telling us to turn here or there and we kept getting lost. But you could tell when we started to get closer to the World Trade Center cause there were cops and firemen every where. those fuckin' Arabs really fucked us. like all the streets are all fucked up. So i got to see the remains of the WTC. I really can't explain the sadness. I cried so much. There are walls and walls of memorials to the lost. they plaster the streets. it gave me the most erie feeling. i keep thinking that people were where i am standing but in pure horror i mean the city is so fucked up like blocks and blocks away. I just blew my mind. Well, Brian got pissed cause he kept hitting pot holes so we headed home. I drove home from New Haven, Connecticut. and we went to bed at 3 am to get up at 5 am to do the mother fuckin' paper route that I hate more than anything in the world. Current Mood: okay Current Music: Wallflower-Caroline's Spine (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 1st, 2002
10:59 pm	First off, Bethany thanks for the BBQ...lol you rock!!!! SO new years was not what i wanted or expected but it turned out good :) Went to family and chilled there till 10 pm ish, then home to find Brian. We then went to wal*mart where i say crew of "freaks" with their purple hair and nose rings. (LOL Guys, Joke) so Bethany invited us to stop up her chill crib and party. so we went home made tv dinners and drank Martini & Rossie Sparkling Wine (Champange to us poor folks). Smoked a bone and with a healthy buzz proceded to the Chill Party..Only staied for like half an hour, but you could tell the kids were having a blast. I had to be miss responsbility, so no more drinks for me. Paper route in the freezing fucking cold and well that's it. oh yeah, Brian bought me sheets for Xmas. Well i forgot to wash them so it turned our skin blue!!!! :) plus The United States Department Of Commerce sent me this survey tha by law i have to fill out and send in...It's suposed to take 40 mins..as though i don't have anything better to do. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: the back groung music of Grand Theft Auto 3 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 29th, 2001
1:26 am	you girls and your quizs'are way to funny!!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 23rd, 2001
11:57 pm	talk about christmas shopper !!! that's right , it's me!! I shopped for every one on my list today, my first day of shopping and with money to boot :) Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: R. Kelly (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 4th, 2001
12:59 am	Oh my god!!!!!!!!! SOme times i wish i never met brian. so i get home from work and no wait uhhhh brian is so selfish thursday night i wanted to go home to my parents.. but no had to help him with route. so can't go see my dad.. weekend same thing. so i get home wanting to go to sleep what's tonights well I am a cunt becase i didn't get a soda. well he spends $10 bcks a day on scratch tickets you think he could splurg for a fucking soda. so i get pissed and end up leaving in the Hyundia, which is mine to use till i get the other car on the road, He calls the Police and reports it stolen. MOTHER FUCKER!! i aam on the fuckin insurance . i help pay for it this month and other months. Also he wants me to park at big y and walk to work. cause his mommy told him i park it near other cars. Fuckin asshole. I can't stand him or this fucking pathetic relationship. So i went to the police station to report mental abuse. ending up talking to a cop and feeling better. Plus now i am home, No i wasn't arested, and the fuckin cocksucker still won't leave me alone. When is move out day????? Current Mood: enraged Current Music: no tunes, just my head pounding...poor neighbors (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:48 am	Oh my god!!!!!!!!! SOme times i wish i never met brian. so i get home from work and no wait uhhhh brian is so selfish thursday night i wanted to go home to my parents.. but no had to help him with route. so can't go see my dad.. weekend same thing. so i get home wanting to go to sleep what's tonights well I am a cunt becase i didn't get a soda. well he spends $10 bcks a day on scratch tickets you think he could splurg for a fucking soda. so i get pissed and end up leaving in the Hyundia, which is mine to use till i get the other car on the road, He calls the Police and reports it stolen. MOTHER FUCKER!! i aam on the fuckin insurance . i help pay for it this month and other months. Also he wants me to park at big y and walk to work. cause his mommy told him i park it near other cars. Fuckin asshole. I can't stand him or this fucking pathetic relationship. So i went to the police station to report mental abuse. ending up talking to a cop and feeling better. Plus now i am home, No i wasn't arested, and the fuckin cocksucker still won't leave me alone. When is move out day????? Current Mood: enraged Current Music: no tunes, just my head pounding...poor neighbors (Comment on this)
12:48 am	Oh my god!!!!!!!!! SOme times i wish i never met brian. so i get home from work and no wait uhhhh brian is so selfish thursday night i wanted to go home to my parents.. but no had to help him with route. so can't go see my dad.. weekend same thing. so i get home wanting to go to sleep what's tonights well I am a cunt becase i didn't get a soda. well he spends $10 bcks a day on scratch tickets you think he could splurg for a fucking soda. so i get pissed and end up leaving in the Hyundia, which is mine to use till i get the other car on the road, He calls the Police and reports it stolen. MOTHER FUCKER!! i aam on the fuckin insurance . i help pay for it this month and other months. Also he wants me to park at big y and walk to work. cause his mommy told him i park it near other cars. Fuckin asshole. I can't stand him or this fucking pathetic relationship. So i went to the police station to report mental abuse. ending up talking to a cop and feeling better. Plus now i am home, No i wasn't arested, and the fuckin cocksucker still won't leave me alone. When is move out day????? Current Mood: enraged Current Music: no tunes just my head pounding...poor neighbors (Comment on this)